I Can’t and Won’t Change
I was never really satisfied with what I had or who I was. I always wanted more. I always wanted to better myself and those around me. But there are things that I can’t change about myself. And some of those things are viewed as negative in the eyes of others. Society associates certain negative traits with certain types of people, and no matter how hard you try, you can’t change their minds. Unfortunately, this is the world we live in today.
I admit that sometimes I join in with society and beat myself up for being this way. I end up hating myself for not doing “better”; for not being “better”. I even try to change myself, as impossible as that may sound. But I can’t. I can’t and I won’t give in to other people’s definition of what is normal or what is attractive.
At the end of it all, I always remind myself that there is no point in dwelling on what I can’t change. This was the hand that I was dealt. I was born this way. And I could care less about what others think of me for it.
And instead of conforming with society’s demands for me to be “normal”, I’ll just stick to being “me”. I’m not that “____ guy” down the street. I am just Allen. I refuse to let that single word define who I am or limit what I can do.
Because there are also other people out there, who are okay with who I am. Actually, they’re more than just “okay”; they don’t see it as a bad thing at all. There may be fewer of those people out there, but they are still there. And just from that fact alone, I am happy.